When God decided

When God decided

You should be born

It didn’t mean you’ll have what you need.

For some, he gifted people and things,

For others, altruism, loneliness and pain.

Good people who do not do harm

He decided should be resource to others to use.

Those who are unable to cherish his gift

He rejoices in like with his prodigal son.

When God decided what your fate shall be

You had no choice

And you struggled in vain.

He may have something good in store for you as well

But you may expire until you get there.

And if ever your needs should be met

You’re too old the joy of the moment to count

Too tired of waiting  a lifetime for what others always had.




I look at my SELF in the mirror and I feel proud

My behaviour shouts me out loud.

The words describing me won’t be praise

Truth, honesty, empathy, love to give out I was raised.

I’m different from all those I got to know and did me harm

Who used my good nature then, suddenly, forgot the charm

The magic of being truely loved

May they never get  another chance from God.


I stopped giving out my soul

People tread on it like it were dust.

I stopped hoping there’s left

Some decency in a world of lying and mistrust.

I stopped praying coz it seems

God has forgotten me like you… feels

Futile to hope in vain

Solitude is the only gain.



Late at night i cried my heart

Sleepless dozens of nights i prayed you might

Grow a soul by the morrow

So that i haven’t drowned in vain in sorrow.

The morrow came mute as you are

The story ended without good bye.

You stole my life and killed your love one day

Like a coward, deaf and dumb,

Forcing me to become…numb.

Letter to God

Dear Almighty,

I have been your creation for half a century now

Led my life in honesty and love, it’s all i know how,

Of people who used me, then dumped me in such cruel way

Never wanted riches, humble was my every day.

You gifted me and left me to dry

The pain made me bitter, i wished to die.

You may not like it but shouldn’t be surprised

That, when you torture good people, they lose faith in Thy.

It’s only natural to give in when they beg you in vain.

You should love all your children the same.

I’m done begging and have one wish left:

That i shall get used to the loneliness.



One of the few

Who trusted you true.


Looonnnngggg waiting of something that never happens or happens so late you cannot enjoy it.

Infinite hope that if you do your best and are the best you can be, your needs will be fulfilled.

Fortune playing tricks on you and your life never being a choice you failed to make.

Endless dissapointment in God and humanity.


How many times you prayed in vain,

On the verge of madness hoping God will listen?

People let you down all of your life

Enough pain you had for seven lives.

Longing, hoping, trusting, loving with all your might

Ended up in loneliness and broken heart.

Sounds of your tears didn’t reach Heaven

Sounds of your voice remained echoless and baren.


The being

The being could be a creature full of wonder

If he did not give himself to the one under.

The being could be a model of humanity

If he did not forget normality.

The being could be loving, tender and caring

If selfishness and ego would not be his bearing.

The world could be a much better place

If people were human not inhuman beasts.



Memories look like you

Memories taste like you

Memories feel like you

When times were new.

Memories are all I have

Times have passed and I can’t get

Used to the silence of your voice

As if I had any other choice.

When destiny plays hurtful tricks

One cannot fight enough to win.

Memories feel like when

I was you and we were us

For that special moment in time

When i was everything you ever wanted

And thus

You weren’t afraid to tell and show

What in your heart you felt I needed to know.

iubirea adevarata